allowed ?

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who counts for my 
victories at the town
square when i have  
labelled every loss
in secret just to 
silence the crowd?
but was i allowed?

i am losing almost
every shade of the
canvas, which they 
call the threshold 
colour of ground ?
but was i allowed? 

my autumns burned 
their umber children 
and lost the beacon 
of drizzling lakes 
and snowflakes,
is it called profound?
but was i allowed? 

should i feel just proud?
what if i am not allowed ?

- chetna 🌻 



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