you or clown or ghost?

i met you first, 

your clown next, 

your ghost next, 

your fumes next. 

you never looked like you, 

your clown looked like your ghost, 

your ghost looked like your fumes, 

i inhaled your fumes but never you. 

i saw your smile, pretty innocent, 

i sterned at your clown in illusions, 

i fought with your ghost in my mind, 

but i could never purify your fumes. 

i did read you only one time, 

but i wrote numerous anthologies 

over your fake clown, 

over your idiot ghost, 

over your flying fumes, 

because they were meant to. 

you never lied, even didn't speak the truth, 

i gave you colours, but not to make the clown, 

i gave you souls, don't turn them to the ghost, 

i've waters, can i neutralize your firey fumes? 

jokes of your clown haunt me, 

horrors of your ghost haunt me, 

impurities of your fumes haunt me, 

your clown laughts at me, 

your ghost frowns at me, 

your fumes burns my each part, 

listen, all i needed was you, 

just you, not clown, not ghost, no fumes. 

i got apart from your fumes first, 

then ran far away from your ghost, 

then i turned back off your clown, 

and i said bye and left youuuuuuu. 

-chetna 🌻