manchild

i was slowly becoming 

a plant for the fallow 

manchild like you,

so the words i said in 

the heat to unwind you

now look calculated,

so the claps i adored

you turned performative,

all my fingers climbed 

upto my cheeks, not in 

the fear of one day 

losing you, but for the

face i carried while 

serving you, 'cause 

i thought you would 

never ever paint me blue,

you disguised cruelty, or

maybe my dead mentality 

loving you so hard, i was 

just switching personalities,

once an iceberg, never 

chose to be the river again,

i fuelled your empty brain 

with my fucking generosity,

i am done now to get 

everything undone now,

the girl of your dreams is

still discolouring herself 

to one day meet the sun,

the boy of her dreams she 

once prayed you were is 

still tarnishing her heart,

i was slowly becoming an

oasis in the deserted 

manchild like you,

so the benefits you had

by forcing me to become 

a man unlike you.

- chetna 🌻