ten thousand

Hi, I'm delighted to announce that we're a family of 10,000 global readers now. This number might be so small but it's huge for me. I started writing at the age of 15 , in early teenage , back at school. But i published my first blog on 'Death' and 'Failure'  four years back. And this happened aftermath.

I don't know what had taken me to writing and poetry but I couldn't be happier if poetry has chosen me.

I know poetry necessarily doesn't bring fame or success because it's a game of chance and luck but poetry has given me an identity. This identity is made by me , my words, my feelings, my experiences, my imaginations , my sentiments and my everything. Nobody can ever snatch this identity from my lap. 

Humans cry a lot , so do I but in a different form. You probably don't find me sobbing or crying but you can find my name with a sunflower embedded below some bleeding words which either portraying what I've felt or what could have answered. 

The biggest motivation for me over these years for my write-ups is hiding my tears behind the menance of my mind . You can never know how messed up i walk on the street and even how many times my tears got dried over my cheeks by themselves by the cold winds of winters but you can always know how every word I write in my any poem is linked and synced with my heartbeat.

In this world where everybody is so engaged in commenting on others either straight on their faces or at their backs, I'm proud of myself that I choose everyday not to dissolve my integrity and bitch about the things which are not in my hands but to write what others can not.

A lot of people ask me , "why do you write?" And i simply answer , " I write for the world and the world writes for me." Humans are ghouls when it comes to expressing their emotions. Even I'm also bad at expressing but I'm good at writing. Sometimes I've even written things which actually happened to me in future. But let's stick to here , everybody is dealing with heartbreaks but not everybody is writing about it. Everybody is falling in love at some point of time but not everybody is writing love letters to their lovers. Everybody is failing to the standard set by others and not everybody is convinced about his/her strengths. Everybody is going through grey shades in life but not everybody is healing in the way they should be. And I'm writing for those everybodys.

I don't know till when I'll be writing but it's the only thing which gives me breath. I've written about failing tests, falling in love when it rains everytime he meets me, bodily insecurities, suicidal thoughts, crests and troughs, emotional detachment, family feuds, friends and trends , almost everything.

My wishlist includes writing till my senses allow, writing till the last person who wishes to read and skim me , writing till i learn it was worth to fall in love , writing till i realize I was wrong to become a counterfeit just to please others, writing till my hands shake , writing till burrows and trunks make babies and writing till he pats my head , gives me night time pills , closes my book and asks me to sleep for the next brighter day because it's all my fantasies about writings.

It actually took a long time to reach ten thousand mark but i believed in myself and the people who believe in me. And i simply want to thrive in their belief system. I love to admire every single second you spent reading my writing and poems.

Thank you so much for your support. 

You truly helped me to heal my tears and pain.

You truly helped me to pay the debt of my blood.

You truly helped me to fall in love with the words.

You truly helped me in every sense.

You're my family.

We belong to a poetic world.

Let us never fade this muse.

Thank you so much again.

- chetna 🌻