an unkind kid

i failed to feel how you feel

but you didn't feel i need to heal

i heard pieces are beautiful 

until their collection seemed horrible

sunsets were a luxury for a year

for ruining me, midnights were sincere

i don't count the dawns and dusks

i saw my fate, fables and fucks

stranger reads my poem 

lights at my home were dim 

walking through interchange

i faded into the darkest haze 

dark circles with red acnes

i was carrying loads of spans 

then i see drops in the eyes

don't come out, brain advises

mom says i turned rude 

elders are made to delude

my baby niece is at home 

but i was lost in my zone

all eat food but i did engulf

i smile with cheekless skull

i did do the last dishes 

and wanted worse wishes

my room had no window

luckily i had a soaking pillow

this guy misunderstands me

he opens his mouth and ends me

i couldn't write, i couldn't rhyme

thinking kindess once done was a crime

they need logics or explanations

i shut the door to avoid conversations

i remember the nights i didn't sleep

acids turned my body into a weed

humans have a short memory

this guy had forgot the chivalry

i often had over cent fahrenheit 

still everyone said where i wasn't right

so it's cool to bake alone my grudges 

so it's cool to ignore their prejudices

i don't trust you as i'm a tortured poet

then my town was struggling with riot

you all were silent and enjoying it 

there was bad blood overflowing it

world maybe kind, i've lost my mind

this is audacity but i've crossed my line

none came to lessen my fatality 

i was fed up of your cold personality

they ask for peace, i stood concrete

i honestly love walking alone in street

they say be kind, but started taunting

my bad test scores looked so haunting

i found my love of hating humans

you all are angels and I'm queen of demons

this isn't a trauma, it's a confession

i've given up, i'm at over stimulation

kindess was scam 

sorry i failed it's exam. 

- chetna 🌻