my threes

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 My friends will be leaving me in a month. Yes we will be graduates next month. I can still remember the day of first week of April 2022 when i cried in my college chaupal after looking around where all had their friends. That feeling still haunts me but i have put out my very dear secret to you today. Because i wasn't guilty and hasn't bunked relationships with others. However i feel sometimes i don't have involving personality. And the other times i feel i need to be hugely responsible towards people. A lot of such emotions gave me mental stroke and actual tears rolled down in the public. The best part of public is you can do private things without getting noticed amongst strangers. I looked all around ,rushed to free space , opened my bag, put newspaper out and began eating political, economic, social, ideological components which stabilized me soon. 

Right things started when somehow i saw my most awaited person Tanishka Mathur in our first fest. I waved Hi, she showed me thumbs up. I felt comfort and found her akin 'yesssss'. I was talking to all but sharing with her only. Another set back we both go on independence day celebration- another human Aditi Waila(not Walia) joined. We walked in the lanes of Old Rajinder Nagar, drank cold coffee, experienced rains and i earned another comfort. By times, another event, i met intellect madam - Arya Tekriwal. We ate on rooftop butter chicken and chinese platter and gossips about the most deserving fellows of our class. We bitched a lot, another comfort zone. And i got 3 Yayssssss. And i have 3 Yayyyyssssssssss. 

From politicizing second year departmental elections to playing Kati patang tera konsa rang in college ground to finalizing others' relationship status by Instagram posts to fantasizing over giraffe to bhel puri at evening to helping me to catch 522A for coaching to judging Nishta mam's appreciators to collecting Rs 40 coupon for getting IDLI DOSA for Arya to mimicking Skaateeyyy to naming the cats of college to jumping on dried leaves and making videos to everything. 

I missed the major part, i know- fests, events, classes, competitions, fun, frustration and all the stupid fucks. I am really grateful to have three people in my life. I am very immature to maintain relationships but i can't fail to make you guys feel how special part they have played. Otherwise i had decided in second sem to stop going to college (who the fucks comes from 13kms just to get traumas). But our crossing paths has taught me to enjoy my missed part of school life. 

Thank you




Comments

  1. MohitMay 4, 2024 at 3:41 PM

    You are lucky , you got friends in college. Some people like me always feel alienated in their own college ,Knowing no-one . Tried going college but that feel of loneliness and sitting alone seeing others laughing, crushed my college life, so i stopped going college regularly 😅.

    Feel blessed for having friends in college whom you can remember. In my college life, i have a lot of imaginary people, who also stopped talking to me now 🥲


    New experiences are yet to come, be prepared for them 🙏

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    1. ChetnaMay 5, 2024 at 12:51 AM

      I'm blessed that you read and understood. Yes, it's hard to find people. We should never lose them.

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  2. AnonymousMay 5, 2024 at 12:53 AM

    But there are some good friends too MOHIT , You don’t have college friends but you have some friends may be they are in less quantity but they are rich in quality may be you just didn’t get fake friends rather then you got family.

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    1. ChetnaMay 5, 2024 at 12:59 AM

      I'm delighted that you read. Yes friendship has no limits. Richness of bond overtakes every other bad quality.

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