flawless flow

I will not mind sharing my pillow turned wet yesterday when I couldn't make it. 

Lemme explain. I stood for the post of Editorial Head in my college in Economics Department. I tried hard , so hard to convince voters , still in the end I came with empty hands and not with flying colours. For a second I had an doubt for my personality. I stopped even thinking what's happening around , how people are congratulating each other, admiring each other and looking at them , I felt like I'm out of this world totally out. 

I'll not even mind sharing every other candidate was good enough to win elections and then write for the department magazine. I truly admire winners. But I need to question myself, "is it true, you're truly admiring results?" 

I'll answer , I admire winners after all humanity exists but admiring results take me down. " I demand the best , because I do the best " , a mentality cursing me everyday. I tried to find flaws in my flow. 

As we're introduced our different pastries , it depends who finishes it first and who lags behind. But it has been already finalized that we all will be provided a pastry. But how would I feel when someone tries to snatch my pastry after finishing his own? I felt the same yesterday. I was kinda sure that I was swimming in the flow unaware of my flaws which could let me to drowning. 

Nobody has ever snatched my pastry , even if i was the only one who has got a pastry. Maybe this might be the cause for the chocolate which is now not melting in mouth. 

Sometimes , flows have different plans , they never reach to our flaws. 

People might look acceptable and admiring after their loss. They might be smiling healthy but their lost hair know the value of their lost sleep. Many a times eating 3 more bread looks more approachable than swallowing 8 breads. 

LoL, this is how I convinced myself. 

Basically I wanted to keep it very long but grief is genuinely good and didn't let my hand to type more advanced. So , this write up was conclusion of some bad waters of eyes which unnecessarily tried to come out. 

An honest person value his waters, more than served food in the plates before him. 

But at the end, some good humans come to me and that changed my moment.  They asked , how to imply some traits in their daily lives ? They asked about the traits which I'm pursuing. I was contend I transformed their mindsets. I liked the Diaspora I made in them by just living far , doing for myself and reforming for some others too. 

I removed flaws from my flow. Ego issues finally lost and ran away so fast. 

I will say, "where did you flawless flow go ?"

I will answer, " it went to remove its flaws!" 

-Chetna 🌺